2006年10月31日 星期二

這樣活著真辛苦

a time to die - Ubi Amor Ibi Fides - Yahoo!奇摩部落格


道歉是無三小錄用的外交辭令。真的犯錯的話,是要誠實的認錯,然後盡力的彌補傷害,這才叫有誠意的道歉,要不也不過就是場面話,我可沒這麼好說話,幾句場面話就可以打發我了嗎?門都沒有。我或許可以接受彌補,但是,為什麼我該原諒別人的錯呢?原諒,不是我的事情,是上帝的事情,是你自己的事情。沒有人可以原諒你自己。


這段話很像相聲『台北之戀』裡面說的『道歉也是曾經,於事無補我不接受』。

我覺得要寫下這段話並不容易。不容易的不是文字上的表達,而是真的面對著所有的人說:『對,我就是這樣。』以前跟階梯大神爭論某些事情的是與非,我認為的是非就是硬性的,不能因為要做某些"好的"事情所以原諒了過程當中所產生的"錯的"事情(其實是在講李登輝,but that's another story)。階梯對我說:『如果你再這樣堅持下去,會變成某某人喔~』(你看,我還是沒有辦法把某某人的名字寫出來)

所以其實我也是無法原諒別人的人,因為我既沒有聽到道歉,也沒有受到補償;既然犯錯的人自己不覺得有錯,我又何必好心替人家多想?只好每次不小心想起來想要發作的時候,自己跑去街上亂逛,以免口出惡言傷到別人。

有時候我覺得自己是沒有什麼原則的人,應該說作法上沒有什麼太大準則的人。我覺得問題並不是沒有準則,而是我自己的準則太過嚴格了,而世界上的事情太容易逾越這個準則,所以超出這個準則的事情,我沒有辦法處理,只能放任讓事情是怎樣就怎樣了。說來也是一種不知道該怎麼正常處理人事物的疾病吧。



人最大的受苦是人與人之間的錯待

---邱妙津


可怕的風之谷

Xuite日誌:天下無雙轟天炮 (偽)

小心,圖超多~ 雖然說我常常也買到不知所云字幕的DVD,但是還沒有像這個這麼離譜的。



2006年10月26日 星期四

Programmers

DaveNet : Programmers

It's fun to read about his idea of a programmer. Programming is like Zen, you need epiphany to breakthrough.


程式設計師的十種級別

程式設計師的十種級別

第一級:神人,天資過人而又是技術狂熱者同時還擁有過人的商業頭腦,高瞻遠矚,技術過人,大器也。
第二級:高人,有天賦,技術過人但沒有過人的商業頭腦,通常此類人不是頂尖駭客就是技術總監之流。
第三級:牛人,技術精湛,熟悉行業知識,敢於創新,有自己的公司和軟體產品。
第四級:工頭,技術精湛,有領導團隊的能力,此類人大公司項目經理居多。
第五級:技術工人,技術精湛,熟悉行業知識但領導能力欠佳,此類人大多為系分人員或資深程式設計師,基本上桀驁不遜,自視清高,不願於一般技術人員為伍,在論壇上基本以高手面目出現。
第六級:熟練工人,技術有廣度無深度,喜歡鑽研但淺嘗輒止。此類人大多為老程式設計師,其中一部分喜歡利用工具去查找網上有漏洞的服務器,幹點壞事以獲取成績感。如果心情好,在論壇上他們會回答菜鳥的大部分問題。此級別為軟體業苦力的重要組成部分。
第七級:工人,某些技術較熟練但缺乏深度和廣度,此類人大多為程式設計師,經常在論壇上提問偶爾也回答菜鳥的問題。為軟體產業苦力的主要組成部分。
第八級:菜鳥,入門時間不長,在論壇上會反覆提問很初級的問題,有一種唐僧的精神。雖然招人煩但基本很可愛。只要認真鑽研,一兩年後就能升級到上一層。
第九級:大忽悠,利用中國教育的弊病,頂著一頂高學歷的帽子,在小公司裡混個軟體部經理,設計不行,代碼不行,只會胡亂支配下屬,拍主管馬屁,在主管面前胡吹海侃,把自己打扮成技術高手的模樣。把勾心鬥角的辦公室文化引入技術部門,實在齷齪!
第十級:驢或傻X,會寫SELECT語句就說自己精通ORALCE,連寄存器有幾種都不知道就說自己懂彙編,建議全部送到日本當IT產業工人,掙了日本人的錢還嚴重打擊日本的軟件業!
其中又以前兩級和後兩級最為難得,其餘級別只要努力,皆有可能達到

調查駙馬爺電腦的人應該先來看這個

Dana Epp's ramblings at the Sanctuary: Mythbusters: When biometrics fail



2006年10月19日 星期四

Pictures of India

Mumbai - Rajastan
Though Nachkebia gripes about his Zeiss Ikon that broke down when he went to India, these images speak for themselves nontheless.





2006年10月18日 星期三

Quote


Miracles are not only possible - they are common occurrences.

Magic happens whenever we break free of the linear tranjectory of "cause and effect" to make a quantum leap into a different reality.

Because this journey is metaphysical, we may never know that something special has transpired, but by having the faith to call on a higher power for help, we can often align with a more desirable outcome.


From here

I am tired

Tired....

好像又是 Back to square 1。對,又來了;老是 back to square 1,好像所有的努力、精神全部都白費了,我又回到原來的地方了。那種隨時都想反胃的感覺一直籠罩不去。
好累....到底要流浪到什麼時候....真的好累....
If I cannot end it, will it end me?

2006年10月17日 星期二

萬里防火牆萬里長 防火牆外面是故鄉

[保留] 关于收到aaazzzaaazzzaaazzzaaazzzaaazzz邮件的原因(已有结论) - ChinaUnix.net

今天iyuan跟我說收到內容是亂碼的信,想起來前一陣子我也收到這樣的東西,本來以為是台北的mail server出問題,沒想到去google一下,發現連 delphij 也碰上了。最後找到上面這串討論,頗精采。

真是萬里防火牆萬里長~ The Great Firewall of China



2006年10月16日 星期一

Font AA in JDK/JRE 5

99 little bugs in the code...: Turning on Font antialiasing in Zend Studio 5!

This works quite well in standalone applications too. Now the job will be to put this into Webstart too.



Steve Jobs on reaction to MS Zune launch


Microsoft has announced its new iPod competitor, Zune. It says that this device is all about building communities. Are you worried?


In a word, no. I've seen the demonstrations on the Internet about how you can find another person using a Zune and give them a song they can play three times. It takes forever. By the time you've gone through all that, the girl's got up and left! You're much better off to take one of your earbuds out and put it in her ear. Then you're connected with about two feet of headphone cable.


I really like what he said about "Then you're connected with about two feet of headphone cable."! Nerdy engineers would never say that!

菊花台 - 周杰倫


菊花台

詞: 方文山 曲: 周杰倫
編曲: 鐘興民 製作人: 周杰倫 吉他: 蔡科俊Again

妳的淚光 柔弱中帶傷 慘白的月彎彎 勾住過往
夜太漫長 凝結成了霜 是誰在閣樓上 冰冷的絕望
雨輕輕彈 朱紅色的窗 我一生在紙上 被風吹亂
夢在遠方 化成一縷香 隨風飄散 妳的模樣

菊花殘 滿地傷 妳的笑容已泛黃 花落人斷腸 我心事 靜靜躺
北風亂 夜未央 妳的影子剪不斷 徒留我孤單 在湖面成雙

花 已向晚 飄落了燦爛 凋謝的世道上 命運不堪
愁莫渡江 秋心拆兩半 怕妳上不了岸 一輩子搖晃
誰的江山 馬蹄聲狂亂 我一身的戎裝 呼嘯滄桑
天微微亮 妳輕聲的歎 一夜惆悵 如此委婉

菊花殘 滿地傷 妳的笑容已泛黃 花落人斷腸 我心事 靜靜躺
北風亂 夜未央 妳的影子剪不斷 徒留我孤單 在湖面成雙


千里之外 - 周杰倫


千里之外

特別感謝費玉清

詞: 方文山 曲: 周杰倫

編曲: 林邁可 (Michael Lin) 製作人: 周杰倫


(周)
屋簷如懸崖 風鈴如滄海 我等燕歸來
時間被安排 演一場意外 妳悄然走開
故事在城外 濃霧散不開 看不清對白
妳聽不出來 風聲不存在 是我在感慨
夢醒來 是誰在窗台 把結局打開
那薄如蟬翼的未來 經不起誰來拆
(費)
我送妳離開 千里之外 妳無聲黑白
沉默年代 或許不該 太遙遠的相愛

我送妳離開 天涯之外 妳是否還在
琴聲何來 生死難猜 用一生 去等待
Rap
聞淚聲入林 尋梨花白 只得一行 青苔
天在山之外 雨落花台 我兩鬢斑白
聞淚聲入林 尋梨花白 只得一行 青苔
天在山之外 雨落花台 我等妳來

(費)
一身琉璃白 透明著塵埃 妳無瑕的愛
妳從雨中來 詩化了悲哀 我淋濕現在
(周)
芙蓉水面採 船行影猶在 妳卻不回來
被歲月覆蓋 妳說的花開 過去成空白
(費)
夢醒來 是誰在窗台 把結局打開
(周)
那薄如蟬翼的未來 經不起誰來拆
(費)
我送妳離開 千里之外 妳無聲黑白
沉默年代 或許不該 太遙遠的相愛
(周)
我送妳離開 天涯之外 妳是否還在
琴聲何來 生死難猜 用一生
(費)
我送妳離開 千里之外 妳無聲黑白
沉默年代 或許不該 太遙遠的相愛
(周)
我送妳離開 天涯之外 妳是否還在
琴聲何來
(費) 生死難猜
(合)用一生 去等待


安靜 - 周杰倫


安靜

詞/曲:周杰倫

只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
睡著的大提琴 安靜的舊舊的

我想你已表現的非常明白
我懂我也知道 你沒有捨不得

你說你也會難過我不相信
牽著你陪著我 也只是曾經
希望他是真的比我還要愛你
我才會逼自己離開

你要我說多難堪 我根本不想分開
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
我沒有這種天份 包容你也接受他
不用擔心的太多 我會一直好好過
你已經遠遠離開 我也會慢慢走開
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
我真的沒有天份 安靜的沒這麼快
我會學著放棄你 是因為我太愛你


2006年10月15日 星期日

devianART

deviantART: where ART meets application!
I found this site in cameraquest.com searching for the R4a/R4m info. Looks like a great site to visit for stuff in photography and such. Meanwhile, they are holding a contest with topic on street photography at the moment, prizes looks extremely well. But personally, I am not so much of a street photographer myself. I am still in the process of re-defining the meaning of photography for myself. Anyone who is interested and "has a very open mind" may be interested in this 160-page street photography article.

This guy has some same idea as I do towards using digital cameras for casual snaps (or so-called street photography, duh!). To quote him in the article, "You can see the photo
right after taking it, which destroys the whole flair.". Yeah, that's right, that is the sole reason for me to stay with the 5RMB/roll B&W Era film and my Voigtlander Bessa-T. The visualization process still works as long as you do not get into the vicious circle of "shoot-look-delete".

2006年10月14日 星期六

I really like this one!


"You are invited to take advantage of the chambermaid."

-- A sign in a Japanese hotel.

http://rinkworks.com/said/language.shtml

Quote


"You are welcome to visit the cemetery where famous Russian and Soviet composers, artists, and writers are buried daily except Thursday."

-- A sign in a Moscow hotel across the street from a Russian Orthodox monastery.


Cats Facts

CatStuff: Cat Facts and Trivia



2006年10月13日 星期五

Disable SSH Shell access while retaining SCP/SFTP


11:37 < leafy_> can sftp-enabled server prohibit ssh?

11:37 < appa_x> Yes.

11:38 < appa_x> Set their shell to scponly

11:38 < appa_x> and use AllowUsers or AllowGroups to restrict shell access.



The Notebook Fell

昨晚一時失神,把放在桌子上正在跑的筆記型電腦碰掉在地上,發出很大的聲音。看到"趴"在地上的NB(就是機體和螢幕呈180度,螢幕朝下),心裡想著「完蛋了,禮拜六的demo~」
小心翼翼地把NB撿起來,發現還在跑,螢幕上也沒有奇怪的色斑或是條紋或是黑掉的地方,只有頂上的壓條翹起來了,用手壓了一下就回去了。
拿起來檢查了一下,鍵盤的左下右下兩邊翹起來,也是壓回去就好了,然後.....我就繼續用了....

TP真是強壯

2006年10月10日 星期二

Birthday Months

This is stolen from my friend's blog, just pick your birthday months and have fun reading :)


JANUARY=PIMP
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and hysical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them MFE.
FEBRUARY=SMARTS
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. Repost this in 5 mins and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match.
MARCH=THUG
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic. Hot but has brains. If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that's caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize at you are very much alike in the next 2 days.
APRIL=GORGEOUS
Drop dead gorgeous!!!Attractive personality.Very! sexy.Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot! Loves to get their way! . Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense!
Maybe a little too popular with others * wink wink*. Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! A very big flirt! Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of MFE these months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses
others.If you repost this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days.
MAY=LOVER
Hella sexy, loves sex n makin luv, tends to be SOOOOO hott!! Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others.
Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.you are a great match with some body in june. if you do not repost this in the next 5 mins. someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days.
JUNE=SHYNESS
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and
sparkly. spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone.
Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 days
JULY=FLIRT
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have a very attractive partner, a wicked hottie. Like somebody with an August brithday. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. When it comes to films, you know how to pick them and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5 minutes.
AUGUST=ATTITUDE
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter. repost in 5 mins and you will meet the love of your life sometime next month.
SEPTEMBER=SWEETIE
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear
and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak to much in the next 4 days.
OCTOBER=SEXY
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Great in bed.Inner and physical beauty. Doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Makes right choices. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Does not harm others. It is all about love and fairness.Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Horny and does fullfill. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Knows
what to do, to have fun. Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
NOVEMBER=HOTTIE
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. repost in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.
DECEMBER=BEAUTY
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best.

2006年10月6日 星期五

Blog 回來了

終於,因為不知名原因掛掉的PPP,在重新sync source, buildworld buildkernel以後,又復活了。好久不見自己的blog,有種十分感動的感覺。